Our Mindful Eye

This is a little project I started over a year ago.  It is a gratitude journal but instead of writing I was drawing the pictures and then using my water colors.  I didn't get too far, only about 6 pages done, and now I have not touched it for almost a year.  Why?  I haven't actually touched any of my creative tools for almost a year.  My life changed in big way when my granddaughters were born.  The changes that followed have really restricted my availability for my creative pursuits.  Now, I wouldn't change getting to spend this time with my girls for anything, but I would love to start fitting it in again!

The truth is, I need to find a way to add some extra income or new income to the mix.  Really I would love to make my living doing something I love, ART.  As long as I was getting to use my brain to create, I would be in heaven.  There are so many things that I love to do, but none that I feel I am amazing at.  I am definitely a jack of all trades and master of none.  I fear selling something, thinking it's not perfect.  I like to sew, and there are several things I think about selling because they are things I want, and can't find. But when someone pays money for something, I feel like they would expect it to be perfect, and I don't sew perfect.....or I just am afraid to jump in, but I need to, I really really need to.  Because I love so many things and con't focus on just one, I start to think my Etsy store would be like a hodge podge of whatever I was making at the time, and that doesn't sound professional.  Uhhhhgggg......what to do?  

Anyways this past week has had me thinking about the fact that I need to just make time to be creative.  Doing something everyday, to improve my skills, my confidence, my belief that God gave me these gifts for a reason and I should use them.  Even to pray about it and let God direct me.  All the praying I do, very little to none is about this area of my life, how sad is that?  

There is a lot more I could say, but I keep finding myself posting this so late at night.  The next morning when I reread it, so many grammar errors or dropped words.....Oh the horror.  

I wonder what has been on Tracie West's mind this past week?  She is a very talented soul, and loves to draw as well. We even have a class we purchased to do together like 2 years ago and we have not done it.  We need to!!!!